Beauty with a purpose
For much of my life, like many women, beauty felt like something external, something to achieve, maintain or quietly measure myself against. I never really felt I could measure up to it because it was shaped by trends, comparison and an unspoken belief that how I looked said something about how worthy I was. So I didn't really try that hard because I never felt truly beautiful no matter if people told me I looked good (usually my hubby bless him).